My life

I started my life on 8th June 1980 Sunday, the day i came to earth. i stared growing old started to learn life. Spent my childhood without friends alone. Made a few when i was 13, but then again just friends. i was happy alone but still felt emptiness.

One day i gradually reached class 10 the year i appeared for board exams. Scored a minimum of 60% but still didn't loose hope, joined a different school. Again 2 years passed its 1999 and i have to again appear for board and again scored a minimum of 60%.

i lost hope, but somehow again confidence and joined college. my first interaction with computers , it was dream for me and i was happy.

Completed graduation completed masters, now time to join some company and time to grow in life.

Then someone came along in life i met her in orkut. i thought i found my life partner, i was very happy but soon the happiness turned into sad story of my life as my parents didn't like her. i tried my best but she lost hope and left me. i was broke i was crying and i was not happy.

Then i met my old school friends all of a sudden and i was so happy. We had a great reunion. i was happy i found my friends back as i had only one friend. Now i have 4 friends.

few months passed again someone came along she was very young compared to me....i fell in love but she didnot understand my feelings as she was very young but she became a very good friend of mine. i was sad but didn't lose hope. Again a few months passed.

i met someone new in internet, she was behind a mask when she introduced herself. i become friends with her and would wait every day when i will go back home after office and i will chat with her. i used to talk so many things, we even got married on internet, yea its funny but it’s true.

Then suddenly one day she told me whatever she told me is lie, and introduced her real self. I was happy and surprised. I became more close to her. I began to like her so much but didn't have the courage to tell her. I kept on chatting and would wait eagerly for her to come online.

Finally on a cold December winter she asked whether i can meet her. I was over joyed that i will meet the person i like so much in my life.

i waited for her call, and when the phone rang i was so excited that the phone fell from my hands :) i picked it up and talked with her. for the first time i heard her voice.

i got dressed as good as i could and went to meet her. i waited and finally she arrived. she looked beautiful with a gorgeous smile. i smiled back as i was the happiest person on earth.

We spend few hours and it was late and i could allow her to go home alone i went along with her and returned back after she went inside her home. She didn't looked back.

We began meeting each other too often, i will used to wait when weekend will come and i will meet her.

I the mean time i got an opportunity to go to US and work. i told her and she was very happy.

Finally one day i proposed her and she told she is my good friend. I didn't said anything and accepted. i was as before didn't changed. 

The day to leave for US was nearing and i had made it up in my mind that i cannot live without her, because now i loved her more than anything in this world. We met for the last time before leaving for US. She knew what i had in my mind but i never got the courage to speak my heart out. Now she was about to leave i said bye and waited till i cannot see her, but again she never turned back.

One way back home i messaged her i love you. she called back and scolded me and asked why i hesitated to say it in front of her, i said i am sorry but i cannot live with you, finally she said those words which i was hoping to hear for ages those three special word which can change any ones world in a second. She said i love you. i was so happy that i could not stop myself from crying. i was happy i was flying on cloud 9 but i was sad i could not meet her. i left for US. i promised her i will not let you feel alone a single day.

I called her at night day here in India and again in morning. but long distance relationships do create gaps and one such gap came between us and she fought with me for the first time ever. i was very sad. i called her and said sorry, messaged her but no response from her. Finally after 2 days she called me back and said i miss u and i can’t stay here alone without you. i felt very sad.

 i was happy as i was finally in her arms.

and she kissed me for the first time. it was sweet it was beautiful i felt like i was in heaven. i had dreams, dreams which were beautiful.

unfortunately, aunty didn’t like me and later came to know she has asked her to leave me. i was flying on the clouds now i fell down from the skies. 

few months passed, one day i received a call from an unknown number. it was her father. he asked who i was. i said the truth without hiding anything. i was tensed, i was more tensed.

she was upset and she was not happy with me as she didn't expected i will tell the true events, she thought i will lie, but don’t know why i didn't.

she stopped talking with me. i was sad and upset. she was not picking my phone. i asked her to meet me and somehow she agreed. i was happy that i will make things better between us. but my luck was not good she said she was not happy with me, saying so she left me. i was very sad.

i tried my best to contact her but she never turned up. i took help from her friend, she too tried a lot but failed.

i got job in one of the best companies in the world, but i was not happy as i was separated from my life.

again winters came and it was 25th somehow her friend arranged a call. i called her with lots of hopes and dreams.

i was wrong she abused and insulted me like which i had never faced in my life. the ground beneath me just exploded and i felt no legs.

i left disheartened. new year came and i was the so  sad more than anyone else. my dreams are shattered hopes broken. but the love for her in my heart never became less.

tried and tried for 10 months was insulted in every way possible still had a hope she will return. Then one day saw her picture in facebook i was over joyed, but sad and i cried as she was engaged and she was there with her fiancée. now she will never come back was the only thought in my mind. but still my love for her was same.

A few months passed and now at present she is happily married to someone she love. Things changed people changed and it happened so quick  that i still wonder where was i wrong ? i question which has no answers. why she left me? a question with no answer. i have assumptions but then again they are just assumptions.

i still wake up at night and think " i wish she was here with me now" but is a thought and nothing more.

i am still living the life i was living when she was with me but now i am all alone.

i have a wish that she comes back to me, but it’s cruel to think such a thing as i cannot destroy a family specially when it belongs to someone i love.

Months passed many came and went but no one left a print in my heart which she did.

i don’t know whether i will be able to forget her ever in this life but i wish i get her again in my next life. i let go my love for her happiness.